Stop me if I start showing my ass on the internet

Otherwise, boring and happy.

I finally got myself a laptop and what a joy it is to be able to move about in ways I haven’t been able to in years. Many moons ago I bought myself a PC to sure up my ability to take on video work but just last year these new M1 Macbook Pros have finally hit the spot that I’ve needed to get my work done on the go! Chained no more and it’s a delight.

Anyway, onto other thoughts.

Molly and I watched the Chris Rock standup special recently and it was spectacular. It’s obvious why he’s one of the best in the world and one thing stuck out to me about how we are addicted to attention. And namely that there are 4 ways that we typically get attention…

Show your ass

Become infamous

Be excellent

Be a victim

And I suspect that if you’re not or you don’t do any of those things then you probably feel pretty boring. I’m speaking about myself. I don’t show my ass on the internet enough and I feel pretty boring for it. Thankfully I see nothing wrong with boring if being on high alert about your reputation at all times is what it takes to be interesting these days.

But I’m not innocent in the attention-seeking game. My attempt was through the victim avenue. Not to say my mental health and complaints aren’t valid but I have to own and admit to myself that there’s a lot more to write about than my pain and I’d like to tap into more of those other topics. It just so happens that I spend a lot of time trying to grow as a person and with that comes a bunch of gunk that shows up from time to time (all the time). And yeah, sure, I’ll still share that stuff.

It’s important to take a moment and express that life is actually pretty great and I probably don’t think or say that enough.

Yes, I have lots of financial Karma to untangle. That’s a fine and normal byproduct of taking the path I’ve taken. I miss my brother and my uncle. My mental health isn’t always in tip-top shape but having this outlet to write absolutely helps and the money stress still weighs heavy but I’m capable of fixing that.

I’m at peace with where things are and will continue to develop what I can whilst also allowing myself to be present and human in the process. I have a lot more free time than I could’ve ever hoped for and healthy step-kids. My son is also well taken care of by his mom in California. I can breathe, my health is pretty good, Molly is leaning into her community-building holistic superpowers, and I get to work a few hours every day for some rad people then sit, eat, write, and think about stuff.

My book Happy Chemicals: A Neurotic Memoir will be out soon. I’ll post when that’s available. And don’t worry I don’t show my ass in it but promoting the book may bring a different story.