A significant growth edge.
Humility is a significant growth edge for me right now: accepting help, learning new techniques, finding helpful tools, listening to advice, not one-upping others, and caring for my own humanity.
I've been trying to determine where my lone wolf pride came from. Perhaps it's a quality I took on from a parent, an Enneagram 2, and didn't realize how much it has been guiding my life and frankly, holding me back. That's not to place any blame so much as finding the origin, or rather finding what feelings or scripts aren't really mine can allow me to start letting them go.
There's very much a part of me that feels unsafe accepting help or not having some higher-up stance than others even if it's perceived. That's also part of my vulnerability work in admitting when I feel small, lonely, incapable, limited, or in need. The lack of admitting those is ultimately the thing that isolates me.
Some of the first steps I've taken are making some upgrades to software I regularly use, gathering new templates, admitting to my clients and those around me that I've been unwell and need to regroup, and beginning to realize to myself where I've been stubborn and in need of growth. Namely in the arena of skills around my creative work.
Like any growth, I think I need exposure to what's in the dark. I need to see that I can expand myself by humbling myself. I need to face what I think is the worst and find out that it'll be okay. I know it now when I'm writing but situationally, it's going to be one step at a time.